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schools out but im not free

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 13, 2008, 11:27 AM
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last day of school was today. It didnt feel like the last day. I didnt make a big deal at all about saying goodbye to people. I really hate saying goodbye to people - id rather just break off.

It was the most boring day ever - we did nothing in nearly all of my classes. I made a little clay Rammstein bunny - ill post it later.

w/e

im just kind of freaking out about AP art. We have to do 5 finished pieces over the summer....

no onto the ranting

im so fucking pissed about being so under appreciated. i hate my mom. She is so unsupportive of my art its sick. Lately i feel like ive been doing a lot of really good work - so i get all excited about it and bring it home to show her and the first thing she always does is points out some minute error. She never says that she likes it. Ever. Its really annoying because ive been trying really had lately to make all of this work and all i get in return is an unenthusiastic "oh thats neat" or "i think there's something wrong with the head." It just makes me want to curl up and die im so fucking useless. I usually dont let these things get to me but i just cant take it any more. I really want to go into art but it makes me really sad and unsure of myself when she seems to hate it so much. I dont want to be the useless child that my family hates but at the same time im not giving up what i want for them. Its been so hard lately to care about anything when no one cares back.

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  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: He lives in you - Lion King
  • Reading: A series of unfortunate events - the end
  • Drinking: tears

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:iconglasssiva:
Well if this can reassure you from feeling under appreciated, I think you're improving and improving, that is a fact - not pretending that i can give lessons to anyone, but this is what I think : you're good!
Now about your mother's comments, I've met several people, in my family for most, and they act just like that. There are some people whose way to congratulate or to support is to tell such things. What I mean is that some people are just like that, they say things like "that's cool" or "something wrong with this or that", but their aim isn't to flame at your work, or putting you down, it's just how they are. I'm not pretending I know your mother or family, I'm just telling what I have experienced.
You're not useless at all! Don't ever think this about you, you have to hold on cause you can do it !! Hold on Kate :) !! I know cause I've felt the same, and sometimes I still feel the same when I get this kind of comments, especially from family but don't forget that other people like your work, and that others are there to support you :) :hug:

Believe in you !!

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"Mais alors, dit Alice, si le monde n'a absolument aucun sens, qui nous empêche d'en inventer un ?"
The indescribable moments of your life, tonight
The impossible is possible tonight, tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you... tonight
:iconpa1ntbynumbers:
hey katie,

its katie strein, i just want to let u know that i know the whole mom thing ur going through. My mom judges all of my artwork, even when i dont even want to show her. but dont let it bother u our moms arent artist, who are they to judge something u slaved over. my mom didnt like a mixed media piece i did of my grandma and 3 days later it won3rd in the long islands best young artist at the heckscher museum, and all she did was put on a fake smile.parents want to outcome not the work behind it. also ur not useless, ur very talented, and i know ull do great as a art senior, make me proud.
:iconthytemplar:
:hug: thanks

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some people respond well to positive re-enforcement. Others are motivated by negative feedback. I, personally, and unphased by both.
:iconthytemplar:
:hug: thanks

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some people respond well to positive re-enforcement. Others are motivated by negative feedback. I, personally, and unphased by both.
:iconfarkus6291:
as i said yesterday...i know exactly what your going through....

parents r just like blobs of obnoxious turds.....

just trust urself. if u need any help or advice...ill b here!
:iconthytemplar:
lol -thank god for friends :hug:

parents are teh noobzors!

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some people respond well to positive re-enforcement. Others are motivated by negative feedback. I, personally, and unphased by both.
:iconfarkus6291:
yea...and the bunny kicks ass....u should make me a bunny
:iconthytemplar:
lol - ritter gave me an extra one - what lind do you want?

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some people respond well to positive re-enforcement. Others are motivated by negative feedback. I, personally, and unphased by both.
:iconkt-wallin:
i still love you!!!!!
:glomp:
i like your little ending of your rant

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Spiders are evil...

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